Everything to this point is starting to feel like old hat. Yet! I am struggling with the fact that my old blueprint is trying hard to rear its ugly head. This simply cannot happen. My old way of thinking, feeling, and doing was limiting.
As the weeks go by and I am experiencing the feeling of accomplishment by completing the chores, I assign to myself. My first chore was linked to blue triangles. I see blue rectangles throughout my day, and I think of how great it still feels that I finished my first chore. As I come to stop light the red lights remind me of the red circles that I associated with my second chore. As I complete this week’s chore (now service) I am excited because I finished early. That feels so awesome. If I left it up to my old blueprint I would have given up on these chores. Hannal 4-12 states “…when we start something and do not complete it, or make a resolution and do not keep it, we are forming the habit of failure; absolute, ignominious failure. If you do not intend to do a thing, do not start; if you do start, see it through even if the heavens fall; if you make up your mind to do something, do it; let nothing, no one, interfere…” I am seeing how import it is to finish what begin, no matter how small. I feel so accomplished for finishing this week’s chore.
This week the chore has been rebranded, we are now complete services. Which is great, because chores, seem like such a “chore” (negative). As a child, chores were the bane of my existence. I would run and hide from them. Silly, seeing that I had to do the, which I did with malice in my heart. Service has a different ring to it. Acting in service means I am doing something noble.
So, linking the first two services to their colors and shapes was a breeze. I saw a lot of blue rectangles and red circles. It was like when you buy a new car and noticing that car everywhere you go. Green triangles were a little harder. I could not find green triangles anywhere. I decided to use my imagination. I saw a green trapezoid and imagined it was a triangle with its top missing. I remember hearing someone say look to nature for our shapes. Well, this being Florida, the tops of trees became green triangles. Then, it hit me rectangles are multiple triangles arranged to create rectangles. I now had an endless stream of green triangles to link to my service. I finished my service early. It was an awesome feeling.
As I take the time to seek out the shapes and colors that are link to my services and the feeling of accomplishment, I am slowly breaking the chains of bad habits that have kept me limited. I find myself enthusiastically thinking of the person I want to be. I have wanted to be this person for many years but could not reach her. Now she is in my sights. There is no doubt “I can be what I will to be.” I say those words a minimum of sixty times per day. And I am excited. I know I can accomplish my goals.
The feeling I got for completing my service was empowering. Funny, I began to have more confidence in my ability to complete whatever I begin. I am not going to lie, I did not think the Masker Key Experience would work for me. I basically decided to take this journey because I didn’t think it would hurt. The program is basically free. I would not lose anything, and it could work. The Master Key Experience is a 6-month program and four weeks in, I am feeling more accomplished than ever before (excluding the birth of my children).
So, I am becoming an expert at sitting still and quieting my thoughts. Well I am an expert at sitting still. The quieting the mind part is still a work in progress. I now catch myself when I begin to have a negative thought. I am working on my negative emotion towards other people. I am getting better at this. This is because I understand more and more that I can only control myself. This is such a relief; my day is more peaceful. My husband says I am on my “Good Will” journey. Whatever it is, I am less angry at people. My focus is on the person I intend to be.
The blue print builder says that “through the principle of auto-suggestion, any desire that I persistently hold in my mind eventually seeks expression through some practical means of attaining the object back of it,” so if I want to become the person I intend to be my focus should be on her, rather than people and things I cannot control. So, I devote my time to developing my self-confidence and attain my desires.