Chapter thirteen of the Master Key is very interesting to me. I am getting really excited about this process. Things are lining up for me. I am feeling it and that’s causing the excitement for me. This is big because I am a white. Whites are logical and really do not get emotional about anything. When I first did the color test in the beginning of this experience, I was surprised how dead on the test was. But, I kind of wanted to be one of the other colors. Mainly because when writing our DMP’s we have to put emotion and enthusiasm into it. That was something I was having a hard time with. My guide told me I needed to add more emotion into my DMP. I was not upset I was of course logical about it all. But logic really wasn’t helping me. Now I am so close to completing my DMP. While I have not finished my DMP, I am feeling accomplished and that feeling is great.
Throughout this experience we have discussed the power of thought. In paragraph 16 of lesson thirteen Hanaal said “Thought will bring about conditions in correspondence with the predominant mental attitude. Therefore, if we fear disaster, as fear is a powerful form of thought, disaster will be the certain result of our thinking. It is this form of thought which frequently sweeps away the result of many years of toil and effort”. Before I began this journey, I was paralyzed by fear. I had so much self-doubt. I would stay up at night constantly thinking about the things I did wrong. Trying to redo the day to change what I did that day, hoping to have a different outcome. Yet, nothing changed. I see now that I was so focused on the problem rather than the solution. That caused me to be and feel stuck. The more I thought about the problem the worse things got for me. I felt defeated.
Now I am seeing things differently. I am doing what Hanaal says, “If we think of some form of material wealth, we may secure it. By concentrated thought the required conditions will be brought about, and the proper effort put forth, which will result in bringing about the circumstances necessary to realize our desires; but we often find that when we secure the things, we thought we wanted, they do not have the effect we expected. That is, the satisfaction is only temporary, or possibly is the reverse of what we expected.” So now I am focused on what I want. I am seeing some positive affects of this new way of viewing things. I once thought the things in my DMP were just a pipe dream that I would never accomplish. I was viewing them as a dream, rather than a goal to be accomplished. Having goals means they are attainable as long as I do the work. I know where I want to get to and how to get there. It was like a light bulb was turned on. This is so exciting.
I finally put up all my shapes all over my house. I had the shapes in my office and in my car. But that was it. I decided that for this to work I have to commit fully. It’s kind of hard but I know it will be worth it. I thought to myself, “If I am seeing all these changes with little to no effort, what would happen if I truly committed to this?” I have to really start to apply this stuff. Without application I will be stuck in the cement. This is why paragraphs 22 and 23 of lesson thirteen in Hanaal is so profound for me. Hanaal says in paragraph 22, “…the athlete may read books and lessons on physical training all his life, but unless he begins to give out strength by actual work, he will never receive any strength; he will eventually get exactly what he gives; but he will have to give it first. It is exactly the same with us; we will get exactly what we give, but we shall have to give it first.” Then he says in paragraph 23, “Thought is a spiritual activity and is therefore creative, but make no mistake, thought will create nothing unless it is consciously, systematically, and constructively directed; and herein is the difference between idle thinking, which is simply a dissipation of effort, and constructive thinking, which means practically unlimited achievement.” I must keep these thoughts with me. I love to consume knowledge, but I don’t apply what I am learning. Unapplied knowledge will only keep me in the cement. With all my knowledge I was not seeing any growth. I decided to do something about it, now things are starting to look up. I now see that what I want is possible.